So I need to start this by telling those of you who don't know that I got into the nursing school! I got accepted to NAUs Bachelor of Science in Nursing program and start in January. I didn't expect to get in because it's known for being extremely difficult to get accepted your first try (they only accept 30 students a semester and usually have a few hundred applicants each cycle, and have had up to 650) so needless to say, I am excited. Anyways, to the rest of the post.
One thing that might come as a total shock is that I am an introvert through and through. When I tell people this they always seem shocked for some reason, but seriously, I am. I hate hate hate small talk so I don't like being in a situation where it's needed (i.e., parties!), I hate being away from home, and sometimes I even hate being around Vince. Fortunately, he understands when I say, 'Will you just stop talking and let me be so I can be alone with my brain?!' That especially happens when I come home after a long day at work/class and I haven't had some down time.
For the most part, I'm fine with being introverted. It saves me time because I don't have to sit and talk to someone I don't know about how their boyfriend is being super annoying and it saves me money because I don't need to go out and spend time with friends. I leave all that to Vince, who is one of the most extroverted person I know.
At the same time, you can imagine the drawbacks. I may seem disinterested in someone, especially if I'm at a party or in a class, and it makes it really hard to make friends. In reality, I really do want to talk to you but I'd rather hear about things you are actually interested in instead of the weather. I'm probably the worst friend maker there is! This is one of the things that makes me nervous about nursing school: I'll be with the same 30 people for two and a half years. THAT IS FOREVER. And what if I don't make any friends at all? I just read this post on a nursing forum and now I'm convinced I'm going to be that girl that everyone thinks is weird.
But in reality, I just need to take a chill pill. I know I am AWESOME with patients based on my CNA experience and I know that I get along well with coworkers. I have no doubt that my introvertedness will not be a problem when it comes to being a nurse and everything it entails, it's just being in class! Which seems like a totally weird thing to be nervous about. How am I ok making small talk with a patient or a coworker, but not a classmate?
When I sit in my classes now and hear the things people talk about, it seriously drains all my energy just to think of having a conversation like that. I don't care what color your new shirt is or that stupid thing your friend did in the middle of the movies. Tell me about how your parents got divorced or how much you really love nutrition and then we'll get to talking for hours!
Is it a bad thing if I don't make friends? I am there to learn, right? Maybe I should just give them a piece of paper with a link to my blog telling them to read it and find something we're both interested in to talk about. Ha! ;)