Bye bye Iz.

After putting up the Craigslist ad for Izzy, a lady responded saying that her family would love to meet her! The ladies husband came by today to meet her and he fell in love. He has four daughters and thought this dog would fit in perfectly. After talking to him for about 15 minutes he seemed like a really nice guy so I agreed to let him take Izzy home. I already had all her papers ready and some dog food and treats ready for her in a bag. I was totally prepared and figured that once she was gone, she was gone and everything would be ok! 

But it's not. At all.

After putting Izzy in the guys car I went to my mailbox. By the time I closed my mailbox I was bawling. I went straight inside and took a shower and just sat in there crying for a half hour. And I'm not talking about simple tears-down-the-face crying, I'm talking sobbing, shoulders shaking crying. I haven't cried like this since I found out my grandma was probably going to die 2 years ago. 

{Luckily she didn't and is healthy agian!} {And yes, I just compared giving away my dog to my grandma dying. For those of you that know me, you know I LOVE my grandma, which shows how much I love Izobel. Obviously my grandma's death would hurt more though...}

After getting out of the shower it looked like I had been punched because my eyes are already swelling. I finally stopped crying though, but then Vince called and asked how everything went, and I said he took her and I just started crying again. Now I can't stop, which is why I'm writing this, so I can 'organize' my thoughts.

I am so sad to have to give her away. I was just starting to feel that she was completely part of our family and her personality was finally showing. Her and Roxi got along great and they had so much fun playing, and now I feel tremendously guilty. I mean, they were sisters! They did practically everything together and now they won't really see each other again.

When I was talking to the guy, I told him he could take her today and he asked if I was sure. I said that we were all good and that Vince had already cried about it. We were ready to send her to a new home. I truly didn't think I was going to cry, but I guess I was just a little delusional about it. 

I did tell him that if they ever needed a dog sitter that we would be more than happy too, and he was happy about that, so hopefully we'll see her again.

I'm supposed to go to a friends for dinner tonight, but now I really really don't want to. Vince seems to think that it will be good to get my mind off it, but I know if I go I'll just sit there and not want to talk or anything, so we'll see. 

This post seems really scattered so I'm going to stop writing now, but thank you all for listening and for some of you being sad with me. I know this is a good situation to be in by finding a really good home for her, but I'm still sad. 

I'll  post again soon about happier thoughts, like my California trip!