Sad Times.

Last week Vince and I had a 'real' conversation about what we want to do in life, at this moment. We came to the conclusion that the current place we are living is a huge waste of money and we don't want to live here anymore. 

About a week after moving here in December, I knew we shouldn't have. I immediately got stressed about the price of this place and couldn't get comfortable. I don't really feel comfortable with our landlord situation and I know that's because our last landlord was fantastic, but still. It's just not comfortable.

A couple weeks ago Vince and I were on a walk and I was telling him about my feelings and how I didn't feel that this house was 'home' and was trying to explain why. He completely didn't understand me and was actually getting annoyed with me! Our last conversation was good though, and I was able to explain myself better, and he agrees: paying the extra $450 a month is SO not worth it. I mean, that's an entire community college class including a book, saved in ONE month! Since I'm not going to be able to get financial aid this year since I 'make too much', that amount of money will go a loooong way.

We both LOVE the location and the backyard but that's about it. It's also a great size, but once I start school again, I have a feeling I won't be doing much sewing, meaning I can get rid of a LOT of stuff that is in our second room. I understand that I will have to get rid of a bunch of stuff in order to fit in any smaller place, but I'm OK with that! 

When we were living in our smaller house, I was always saying that we need more space and how much I hated our house. Now that I am on the other side of the fence, I realize that I truly don't. I am at a point in my life that I am happy getting rid of stuff and living more simply. I'm absolutely happy that we moved to our current house if only so that I could be confident in my decisions. I now know what I want and what I don't want, because I've had both opportunities. 

I also have realized that I like living in a small overly cluttered house. It's a kind of craziness that is good for me. Most people won't agree with me, but that's what I thrive in: chaos.

What this also means is that we have to get rid of Izobel. I know we just got her in December, but it will be near impossible to find a place that will allow 2 dogs. When Vince and I were casually looking for a new place over a few months last year, we found a single place that would allow a dog, and we had to pay a HUGE deposit, as well as added money to rent. She is also bug and has a huge tail, so if we're in anything smaller that our current place she would knock everything over. 

There's no way in hell we will get rid of Roxanne, but we're hoping to find a good home for Izzy. I posted an add on Craiglist, and we'll do an 'interview' if someone is interested, because we don't want to just give her to anyone. We have a couple of months before our lease ends, so we're not in a huge rush to find her a home. To all you Flagstaff people, if you know anyone who wants a sweet free potty trained dog, let me know!

This is definitely a sad thing, but it's something we need to do and I know that no matter what, she will be in a good home. We'll be picky about where she goes, and in the end everyone will be happy!