I was born to do this.

I forgot about this post that I wrote...5 weeks ago...and I'm posting it now! I'm sitting on my couch sobbing because I just had to say goodbye to my grandparents for TWO YEARS while they are on their mission. I don't have a normal relationship with my grandparents; they raised me for some years growing up and I've always always always leaned on them for all types of support and it breaks my heart knowing I can't see them whenever I please. I'll write more about them soon, but until then, here's a post that I still feel strongly about. (Probably even more-so than 5 weeks ago!)

So I'm going to get all gushy here and tell you how amazing it feels to know that what I'm doing with my life is completely what is perfect for me and it feels so right.

Last night I was studying for my medical terminology class and I just started laughing and told Vince how amazing my mind is and that I'm awesome. I was sitting there, on my couch, reading about the heart and the circulatory system, and I was easily understanding everything I was reading! I quickly picked up on what valves were in the heart, what things did, and what all the crazy words meant. I couldn't believe that I was excited to even be learning about the heart!

When I was in high school, I barely passed health class because I didn't care about what we were learning. Why would I ever need to know about cholesterol or how the heart works? I can most definitely say that I learned the bare minimum when it came to how the body works and was not interested one bit. So now it's hilarious to me that I am learning about all the parts of the body and thoroughly enjoying it; I mean, how many people know what the jejunum is and what O&P, ABG, and PTT stand for, and how to pronounce 'serum glutamic-oxaloacetic transaminase'?!

When I sit down to study, I'm actually excited about it. Ya, it's hard to learn SO much information in so little time, but I am so in love with it. It's like a game to me to see how much I can learn about it and it makes me so antsy to start the actual nursing program. I'm still nervous about taking hard classes such as chemistry, but at least I'm motivated to get through it!

I'm hoping next semester to be able to go to school full time and work part time. Yes, that means quitting my job with amazing benefits and saying goodbye to my retirement fund. (Well, I'm actually going to withdraw my retirement fund for backup savings!) It's scary to know that I won't have a guaranteed income or regularity like I have now but it's so exhilarating to know that I'll be able to get through school sooner and finally be a nurse.

I can't wait to start the next step in my life and I feel so incredibly lucky that I've found what I want to do. I have a supportive husband who tells me that I shouldn't be surprised about learning quickly because I'm incredibly smart and he's a great support system to have.