Thursday, July 11, 2013


Life has been so invigorating and happy and challenging and tiring and full. There has been no time to sit down and write about my life because I've simply been living it. I wake up and go go go until I'm ready to lay my head on my pillow or relax with a book, and I've been enjoying it. That's how I want my life to be; full.

As you can imagine, after my miscarriage I was just...destroyed. I don't even have words to explain it. I allowed myself to sit with that for a few days and just feel it. But then I decided that instead of continuing to sit there I was going to fill my days with all the things that made me feel happy and alive and well. So I've been doing just that. I've been riding my bike, baking paleo brownies that are perfect, painting things 'Sunshine Yellow', reading books, driving fast with the windows down and my hair flying, applying for and starting a new job, playing in the rain, cuddling with my dog and husband, going to see one of my favorite bands, and tending to my garden that is producing so many strawberries I get a few to eat each day and still have some to share with the neighbors.

The thing I've been enjoying the most is exercising and feeling my body continue to get so strong. I'm physically seeing a huge difference in my body and it's such a fun thing to see new muscles pop up! It's also mentally clearing to get out and do something that requires some good concentration.

So with that, I'll leave you a ton of pictures and a promise to write again, but maybe not soon. I'm not sure. I'm busy living, folks.
I started to say that the weather has been really wet so there are tons of caterpillars, but then I remembered it's worms that show up in an abundance in response to rain. Either way, tons of caterpillars everywhere!
Paleo brownies that a friend posted on FB. SO GOOD! Better than any brownie I've ever had. Ever. After cutting them up I individually wrapped some up to keep in the freezer so I wouldn't eat them all in a couple days. Except I did because they are even better frozen since they don't freeze hard because of the coconut oil!
I bought a 1/4 cow! It'll go to the butcher the beginning of September and I'll have fresh grass-fed beef that was raised 7 miles from my house.
Everyone deserves a pair of pink shorts.
Yellow paint can #1.
I saw Streetlight Manifesto at Hard Rock Live in Vegas. I cried from pure happiness. I've now seen 4/5 of my favorite bands!
Strawberries for days.
Rain for days.
Date ride with Vince.
Books! That aren't on the Kindle! 22 so far this year.
We both loved the hideous carpet at the hotel in Vegas. 
Yellow paint can #2.
'Noatmeal' made from ground almonds, coconut flour, maple syrup, and an egg.
Sunday Farmer's Market. I'm too poor to buy anything more.
Diaper butt.
Painted the old sewing cabinet from my grandma. I was worried she'd hate it, but she loved it!
After the rain.


  1. I'm glad you've been living life to the fullest! Looks like fun. I love the yellow paint!

  2. These pics made me so happy, especially the desert one. Also, what are your 5 favorite bands? any plans to see number five?

    Have fun living! I'm starting vacation today so I'm gonna go do the same thing!!

    1. The desert was SO beautiful! I love it when it rains there. My top 6 in no particular order are Mad Caddies, Streetlight Manifesto, Rise Against, Flogging Molly, Red Hot Chili Peppers and Dave Mathews Band. I couldn't actually choose 5 haha I'd really really like to see DMB, but am torn about RHCP. I love all their music but their old stuff is what I REALLY love, and not all the original band members are there, so it's hard to say. But at the same time, if they played anywhere within a few hours of me I'd go see them!

      Woohoo for vacation! I hope it's the best ever!

  3. It's so good to see you here and -so- good to see you so *full*! You look so healthy, bright and happy and your pictures are gorgeous ^_^ Awesome post Steff.

    1. Thank you! =) It's so great to look on the outside how I feel on the inside!

  4. You're a strong girl. I really adore that you decided to get active, giving the circumstances. I'm also busy living life these days and I rarely have a chance to surf the web. I'm gonna try those brownies cause I'm curious how the "regular" ones taste - I only made them with beans so far (and loved them). :)
    Enjoy living!

    1. Thank you! A lot of the times I don't feel strong and have to remind myself I am!

      I so hope you try the brownies! They were seriously amazing!

  5. I am so glad you are so happy now!
    The brownies sound delicious and I'm going to pick up the ingredients tomorrow if I have any money left after the farmer's market! ;]
    I love that gray dress on you! I also love that huge butt on you ha ha =P

    1. Me too!

      The brownies are sooo good, I hope you've made them!

  6. Oh my gosh. I've been so out of the loop. I didn't know you had a miscarriage. Thoughts and prayers your way girl. <3

    I am happy to see you've embraced life for what it is, and are living it to the fullest. You deserve happiness my friend!

    Love the diaper but. haha! I agree with Sara there :) Look back at it :D

    All of these pics are great. Thanks for sharing your life with us. I've posted 2 blogs in the last month, I am slowly getting my blogging life back to normal after MEGA life changes myself.

    1. Thank you!

      I have been so behind on reading blogs, I'll head over to yours soon! Mega changes are good for the soul!

  7. 1. What did you think about "Carry On, Warrior"?

    2. Read "Stiltsville" by Susanna Daniel. One of my absolute FAVS.

    3. Post your brownie recipe.

    1. 1) I liked it? I think? A lot of it I thought was funny and really enjoyed, but towards the end there was just a lot of Jesus talk. I really liked her ideas about God though and how she questioned her church and whatnot.

      2) Added to my hold list at the library.

      3) I've made these a couple more times since the post! haha they are just so damn good.